Her Story

I started to become interested in web and graphic design after joining a few boards on EZBOARD and running across the board Simply Irresistible which was basically a graphic request board about 8 years ago. I was very interested in how they were able to create their own banners and buttons, so naturally I spoke to the owner of the board, which was Shanelle and she introduced me to the world of graphic design. After dabbling in graphics and mastering Paint Shop Pro 7, I moved onto Adobe Photoshop 7. I found Adobe to be very difficult and I was considering deleting the program off my computer but a few of my online friends continued to encourage me to work at it and finally after a few weeks I had Adobe down packed. It was then that I started to notice the numerous websites on the internet and finally after much thought and deliberation I decided that I wanted my own site.

My first official host I believe was Heather of heatherlynn.net. She hosted what started out as a personal site but then I converted it into a clique for Harry Potter fans. The site name was Mirror Image. After running Mirror Image for so long, I decided that I wanted a personal site so I contacted Jennifer of the former glittericious.net and asked her host me. She agreed and broken echos was born. For awhile broken echos was my biggest pride and joy. I loved it to death but I wanted to branch out more with my graphics and decided that I wanted to start a design site. I hauled my ass over to hollywoodheat.net and Sarah agreed to let me run HollywoodHeat Creations. After a while though I couldn’t keep up with HollywoodHeat Creations and thus I had to close it.

My graphic/web designing days came to an end when my dad decided to move in with his girlfriend about 4 years ago and refused to allow me access to the internet. It wasn’t until after I left the house that I was able to gain access to the net, this was about three years ago. Once I returned to the net, I realized that after all that time I still wanted my own domain and thus, my first personal site, Silent Confessions was born. After a few months with Silent Confessions I decided that I wanted my own reseller so I decided to purchase Makeshiftwings.Org which is no longer in existence. During a 7 month period I joined many boards and decided that I wanted my own which for a time was hosted on Makeshiftwings.Org on a subdomain. The board name was Diluted MB. I realized though that if I wanted more traffic and members I should buy a domain for the board so I decided to close Diluted MB and purchase OrgasmicMB.Org. Orgasmic turned out to be a huge success however after several server issues it is no longer in existence. After purchasing OrgasmicMB.Org, I figured that would be the last domain I ever bought. Boy was I wrong! I then proceeded to purchase tragiclove.org only because of all the difficulites I was having with SC.Org. My ex-boyfriend’s mother did not like me and so she made frequent visits to my site and often used whatever I blogged about against him in an effort to destory our relationship. Sadly, it worked. TragicLove.Org was my first and greatest achievement and to this day I miss that domain grately. However, as time went on I realized that tragiclove did not really suit the emotions I had felt towards the man that I loved so I decide to let it go and purchase holdmyheart.net. This domain in itself expressed every single emotion that I have either felt for my ex-boyfriend and all that he has ever felt for me. HoldMyHeart was to be my last “personal” domain I ever intended to purchase because it suited everything that I was feeling toward the man I intended to share my life with, however things ended between us and I couldn’t bear to keep the domain and moved onto another.

CACESTAMOUR which was purchased as a gift for me by my ex-friend Alecia was originally intended to document the joys of love, but after a devestating heartbreak, it was transformed and served to document the sorrows and agony of love. After awhile I let the domain go and for a time lost interest in all things website related.

After awhile I started to get back into the net scene and realized that I always wanted a .nu domain but I wasn’t entirely sure I wanted to spend so much money to get one, nor was I sure what I would call it. However after a lot of thought and opinions from several individuals, particularly my ex-boyfriend, ALLURING.NU was the name that stuck the most. So as a early birthday gift to myself, I decided to purchase the domain and make it my last personal domain for 2 years, however I realized as time went on and things between my ex and I changed (we stopped being friends) I found that in order for me to truly move on I needed a place in which nothing was connected to my past and so I decided to purchase METAMORPHOSIS.NU.

For a time that name really stuck, but then I noticed a decrease in visitors and I started to realize that having to type “Metamorphosis” in order to visit a website was a lot to ask. So I decided on a simpler, shorter name and MUAH.NU was born. I had fully intended on keeping that domain as my personal site for a long time, but then I never anticipated that my now fiance would propose to me and I would need to convert it into a wedding site. Thus, SMITTEN.NU was born.

My original intention was in fact to keep MUAH.NU as a personal domain, however I needed a domain to use as a wedding site and after struggling for the longest time as to what I would name it; I was suddenly hit with the realization that MUAH.NU would be the perfect name. It embodies probably one of the most important moments of a wedding. The kiss that follows after being announced to friends and family as husband and wife. Thus, I sought out a new personal domain, so that MUAH could tell the story of true love and serve as a memory for the triumphs that Robby and I have shared and SMITTEN.NU would chronicle my life and the life that would follow once I… we said, “I do.”

SMITTEN.NU did in fact chronicle my life before and after my marriage vows, but it also documents a very hard time in my life, one of which tested the faith I had in friends and friendships and ultimately the faith I had in myself. After a lot of thought I realized that in order for me to truly let go and move on I had to severe all things tying me to those moments which meant leaving SMITTEN.NU behind. Thus, WHEN-IT-RAINS was born.

WHEN-IT-RAINS.ORG was a domain created I feel out of illusion. At the time I believe it served as a demonstration of the person I truly was, and have since discovered the truth. Over the years I’d lost the person I was and become someone I no longer recognized. It took a terrible act for me to realize my transformation, and while I am sorry for the ones I hurt in the process I do no regret the means to my reawakening. The truth is terrible things happen, but sometimes those terrible things; they save us– and it saved me.

GLIMSPEOFME.ORG was a domain that was created while listening to the song “Sober” by Kelly Clarkson, a song that given my circumstances, I could definitely relate to, a line struck me and hit the very fiber of my being. “I don’t know, I could crash and burn but maybe, at the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me.” From that moment on, I carried that thought with me and I realized that should I decide to purchase another domain, the name I thought would be perfect was “GlimpseofMe.org”. I hadn’t intended on purchasing another domain, mostly because I started to do a lot of my bloggin in my Livejournal, so I didn’t see the point in wasting the money for a site that I wasn’t sure I’d end up using. The choice, however, was taken from my hands when my dear friend Nat surprised me by buying me the domain for Christmas. I was completely taken aback, but I intend on putting this gift, her gift to good use– so welcome to GLIMPSEOFME.ORG, my journey to self discovery.

WISHFULDRINKING.ORG was created during a very dark, very hard time in my life. I had spent night after night drowning my misery in sorrow and finally realized one night that alcohol was not going to cure my problems, rather it just meant I didn’t have to face them. After some thought and a lot of determination on my part, I put the bottle of Vodka a way and chose instead to resolve my problems. 2009 was spent rediscovering myself and repairing a marriage that had been broken due in part to my actions. I felt it only fitting it was time to retire that domain and move on to another that was me in its entirety.

The Birth Of A Name

THEQUEENB.NET is a name that suits me down to its very core. My blunt, sometimes open manner makes others regard me as a bitch because I often say what is on my mind. In addition, my ability to take charge and my refusal to back down, apparently makes other think I am an uncompromising “dictator” which is far from the truth. There are just some things I will not compromise on and if that labels me as a controlling bitch, “dictator”, or whatever you want to call it– so be it. I’d rather stand for something than fall for anything.